NO MORE.

I am beautiful.
I will not be defined by anything other than God and myself.
We are not who we are told to be.
We are who we see in the mirror.

And I see... beauty.
Finally.
After much too long of a time.

And, scars heal.
And most of my scars only stayed because I thought they'd never go away.
YOU determine when your scars fade.
I just erased quite a few.
it is ALL up to you.

Where you go, who you love, what you do.
Life isn't something that just HAPPENS.
You are your own person.
You are your own life.
Take responsibility, for the good and the bad.
Heal the scars that others left on you.
Try your hardest not to leave a scar on someone else.
Try not to leave a scar on YOURSELF.

Take a step back.
Are you really who you have been being?
Who I am hates who I've been.
Who I am hates who I've been.
I am sorry for the person I became,
And I'm sorry that it took so long for me to change.

But I let it happen, and I take full ownership for that.
It is nobody's fault but my own and I have learned and moved on.
The scar is fading.
And eventually, it won't even be there anymore.

I think I have a really hard time... just moving on.
I think that I have to constantly carry the bricks of my past.
What I don't realize is, that yes the bricks are on your back for a while.
And your MUSCLES grow stronger by carrying them.
So eventually, you CAN put them down.
And the strength you received from them is the reminder not to let it happen again.
You don't have to lug these pains around forever to learn your lesson.
MOVE ON.
Just, move on.

I have finally moved on.
And, even when I do look in my rear-view mirror, all I see is road.
and ahead of me, is more road.
And when opportunity comes, maybe I'll take a turn in a different direction.
And if it's the wrong way then I'll turn back.
and behind me will just be... more road.
And ahead of me... more road.

You decide where you go.
What turns you take.
How fast you go.

And I'm not sitting passenger seat anymore.
(Well, to Jesus. :) But he's a good driver.)
If you want to join me, you have to drive next to me in your own car.
Whoever you are.
I will not let you ride in my car.
I will ABSOLUTELY NOT let you drive my car.

OK....


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the end.
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